Random ass post .

Forget about reading this post , cause it is gonna be boring for you guy . <: ----- I'm clinging on , because i still loves you . I'm pestering you , because i want you back . I'm asking you question , just to let you know what i was thinking . I'm missing you , because you're once my pillar when i can put my wholeheartly to you . Everything is impossible now , You're leading your life now , with happiness & laughter . I guess , you're not having any headache about any problem now . I guess , you've forgotten everything about us . Why can't us , be as lovely as others ? Why can't us , be together happily ? Why can't us just give in abit ? Why can't us deserve something better ? I'm a bad girlf . Don't persuade me to give up, because I don't know how to . Don't ask me which part makes me love you so much, because I just be continuing like this. Have I become the memory you'll yearn to remember? I've been thinking, when the day comes where you'll finally take a look at me seriously, I'll be here, waiting.

i'm making myself suffers .

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Yes , i'mma staying @ home the whole day .

Not having any meals today , except for breads . >: Not on diet , is totally no appetite.

School tmr , i'm so tired now , got to go now , buhbye ^^ .

Want your trust on me , to be back again . Siahcheekian . <:

Never ever.

Wokeup @ 12pm , Prepared & etc .
Meetup with my dearest szepei @ lotone , accompany her for lunch .

Aftermath , Trained down to outram park , got so super nervous .

But thank szepei was with me. <:

Was over people's park , saw-ed that tattoo shop.

Got very nervous + scared also , Laugh , Only szepei knows my expression .

It like so funny , ^^ , Szepei allow me to hold on her hand for anhours plus , she's is cute okays !

Gineng came afterward , accompany me over for mac . Couldn't even finish .

Trained over orchard , walked around & saw stacey !

Gosh , Like mother like daughter . 5-6 plus , Batok . While peipei went home .

Thanks alot okays !

Waited for the rest to come , arcade for ddr with Jackson , Lifang , Peirong .

Joseph & co were there too , Ahkai precious lil-bro was like so happy to see me there ! Ohboy , today're like big reunion manzx , Laugh .

Puffed alot today , getting emotional more than ever .

Home around 10pm .

I only got 1meal eachday . Ever since i lost you .
I've no ideal what i'm up to next .
P-blog ... >:

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Vivien is damn emotional now , leave her alone .

She might attitude you , she only wish to have some hearts to hearts talks with him .

She only wants you back , can't you understand ?

Vivien hasn't done any crying before she left no tears .

The last kisses you gave .

Last paper today , manage to do in time & headed to sleep thru out the whole test .
I'm like tired till mad , >:
Home around , 1pm , bath & prepared , headed down to bugis for work .
Still , everymoment , my mind is always occupy with someone . Him .
Rushed to work , aunty bought me lunch but i throw the whole packet away , & had icemilo . Sorry, this few days i don't know what happen to me , i can't eat nor sleep well .
And everymoment , my gastric keep coming back . >:

Done with all busy stuff , 7pm , trained down to batok , thought of having dinner , intheend , No.
Talked about on relationship stuff , tattoos . <: Arcade > Mos .
Home @ 10 30 pm , I've nothing to do now , my mind is so complicated .
Headache plus headache , don't feel like sleeping anyway , perhaps drinking lateron ?

Everything now is all lies to you ,
Why would i bother to explain , being yours don't deserve freedom . That's what you told me ,
correct ?
My tear are all dried all . I cried with no tears .
How terrible , it really scared the freak out of me . >';

Just a piece of paper, filled with love.

Paper today was , c.m.i .
Din't get to do all question , cause i'm fast asleep . >:
Craps all the way in class , & kena smokerliser , but still thank to matong ^^.
He teaches me how to blow the other time , whoo~.

Afterschool , home straight . Had a short nap .
Met Honey @ house downstair , lotone for my dinner , shopping around .
Bought eyelashes glue , & also face mask .
Gonna aim for ipod , face'shine & earpiece , cost me a bomb bodoh . >:
Plus i'm gonna get a tattoo somemore , seriously my wallet confirm C.M.I.

After meeting my honey , home awhile . Then down to meet gineng & co .
Arcade , Mos , 640 , Home .
Talks craps , singsong play mahjong , they're really sucha craps , ^^ but still good advice . :p
Exam tmr , last paper , finally . Goodlucks to me okays .
Working tmr still . Anyone kind enough to come find me ? LOL !


Difficult for me to let go , still imissyou.

I'm sucha , b!tch . Gosh .
I smells durian now , woohoo~! .
Wednesday , Ain't late , he did call me this morning . <: I'm happy okays. School is rather slacking , & i passed my socialstudies ehh ! Claps *

Afterschool , home .
Bath & prepared , headed to fajar to meet Vanessa . A* for lunch then jason house for studying .
6pm , went off to batok , Mos meetup with the rest . <:
Aftermath , 620 > 6head > csc .
Saw peiyun steadywoman there , wow ! <:
talked with her , & went off with b4e .

Csc with them till 9 , headed home , Tattoo-ing this saturday .
>; any idea what am i suppose to put ? hm.

I can't get you off my head .

Tuesday , Exam was okays la .
Cause got study , still not bad . Met boyfriend afterschool , rotted awhile , then home .

6-7plus , Down to find B4e @ Batok , 620 , Mos , 6head kopitiam . As usual . :D
Vernon , WeiAn , then came , was with Gin Eng , Weikang , WeiWen earlier on .
Usual topics , usual laughters , i really miss them alot . :D
Bought cig , then slacked awhile before heading back to cck to meet honey @ my house area .
Rotted , chats till 1130 pm , home as i had stomachache . >:
Whathfreaks okays .


B.U.R.S.T.I.N.G.O.U.T.A.T.P.R.I.V.A.T.E.B.L.O.G.

Never be forgotten . <:

School was rather okays , i did copys note & etc , for my exam . Woohoo ! Shock not ?
Afterschool , Cabbed over Jelapang to meet boyfriend , then rotted @ lrt waiting for jeffrey .
Around 3 plus , home . So late . >:

Prepared & etc , till around 4 . Lotone then fajar .
Thing happened , Mac for studying then 419 .
Got talkings with him , afterall still okays .
Home around , 11 .
I'm damn really sleepy now , thank to my eye . Cried so much , cried till so hard . zzz .

I never forget the big tight hit , you given me .

Staying there with a scar , never be mend .

Pulling my hair till so tight , that's no one done before .

I''m seriously , out of it .

No more , second's time .

Exam tmr , i've to go study nw Bye !

tired of everything .

[ Saturday , ]
Once again , No more msn .
Once again , Everything is gone .


Bugis with szepei today , quite fun . ohyahh .
She is cute okays , bought dress , short , skirt , wallet . Same as hers !
Got so much shopping , & i really miss those old's day being with friend having shopping okays .
walk around streets with her , gaving advice & also listening out to me , thanksyou <: So greatly inlove with you , ohboyyy. Just hope , boyfriend would allow me to go out . >: Sigh .

Got back with him . Won't be patching back if there's another breakup , for sure .
I'm having gastric pain now , I'm having heavy eyelid , I'm having headache .
I'm going to bed after i post this .
Picture will be up tmrw i guess , not going anywhere tmr , family days is like , B.O.R.E.D . -.-


[ Sunday ]
Wokeup @ 1130 , parent haven't wakeup yet .
First time in my life , they had slept till so late , Erhem . <:
So , watched teevee , had maggiemee for lunch .
430pm , had a short nap till 645 . Bath & down for dinner @ lotone .
Somehow , pissed-off . I dontknow why too :x

Home afterthat , around 850pm .
He told me , he gonna go home straight , but now ?
Does he need 1hour to reach home ? I guess so , perhaps he live @ jb .
Just so hard to believe , moodswing , pissed-off . goodbye . i hate everything now .

I see you all over me . <:

Wokeup @ 11am today . Not able to open my eye . >:
Force it open , ended up tear-ing blood .
Whathe shit la , where got such things right ? It badly swollen , badly swollen . >:
Cry more la Vivien ! -.-

Msn-ing with my magdeline tianmimi lesbo ! No more drifting okays .
My face is total shag lor , whathefuck. >:
Going bugis lateron with szepei , i wanna get shorts . >:
Sigh . I'm only 5% percent cure . Where's another 95% ?

Shit off.

skipped school this morning ,
Wasn't inth mood , had some conflict again . zzz.
Pissed me off okays ,

Nextweek exam already , gonna studyhard this few days .
Don't think i'm staying out late too , <:
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Met honey , Wanchan & co @ Fajar .
Mac > 419 > Greenridge > Home .
Met Vienna , Aloy & co @ greenridge , rotted awhile then home .
I'm so tireddd , ohboy .

Yes , i want nothing else but you oh ! O:

fade your mother pussy bodoh .

Pissed off right now , going bed already .

Heavy eyelid , after so much of tear i dropped.

As you wish , i shall shut my mouth from nowonward .

Yes , you'have a very bad girlfriend , indeed .

We share joys too .

Alright , school again . Wasn't late .
Infact i had a bad stomachache , damn it lo .
Super helpless , weak , called bi so damn fuck lots time & he din't pickup .
Like zz , tried to sleep in class , doesn't work .

Inthe end , during chinese , i pull up again chair , & i lied on it . <<: SO DAMN BORED LO . Afterschool , home straight , my stomach hurts . Around 5 plus , trained down to fajar to meet up with Jinglin , Kelvin , Bi , & co . Rotted around fajar , till 830 plus , trained home . So indeed moodswing , i'm so fed-up each time . But thanks to bi luh , he never scold / kp @ me . <: , Afterall , iloveyou the most , siahcheekian .
School tmr , PE plus assembly , Double boredness kays , Going to bed so damn soon .
Goodbyes !

HiHello !

Yesterday , 15 02 2010 .

Happy 3rdmonth boyfriend ! 사랑해요 .
Relative house till late night .
Manage to get home earlier , & cabbed down to jelapang to fetch boyfriend then down to pending @11pm plus .
Rotted sometime , & had some h2h talks with him .
Laugh , stupid him , bought me present / gift . Lovely !

Afterthat , walked over to Jeffrey's house downstair , met Amanda honey & kevin .
Slacked downstair , then up to his house .
While guy're playing pokers , we watch teevee .
Slacked , rotted , ton @ his house till 5am plus , trained home with boyfriend & co .

K.O after that .

Today , 16 02 2010 .
Wokeup @ 11am plus .
Fall back to sleep afterthat till 1pm plus , washed up & bath , rotted @ home .
While , mum & sis went over Aunty house first , dragged time along , then requested dad to drive me there .
I'm lazyyy , <: Told , boyfriend that aunty house is beside his only , & he was like , omgomg . coming to find me . Hha . Reached , play mahjong along with E'boy , Jinxin , Yangyang & sist . Stupid funny , down to played badmintion while i went over greenridge to meet boyfriend & Jinglin & Kelvin . Accompany them to KFC to eat then , went back to find co . Rotted over there , while waiting for them . Afterthat , Greenridge to have early dinner , & also mine late lunch . I had only 1 meal today only , Laugh ! Not bad los . Kfc , while other have kopitiam instead . Meet up together then back to aunty house , Watched Batman Vcd , played around in the room . Damn cooling can ! Around 730 , went down to fajar , 416 . Meet boyfriend & co , lots of people there . Watch them play poker , gambling again ~ . 845 , boyfriend accompany me walk back to aunty house , while him & jingling went home dota . Ohgosh , >:

Together with mum & co , lrt-ed to cck > Lotone > Home .
Bath > Computer .
I'm bored now , super bored okays .

Alright , got to go now . buhbye .

Happpy 3rd Month , Siahcheekian !

wokeup @ 12-1 plus , had lunch , watch tv .

Using of computer , finish watching case39 . Woohoo.

Nice show , loved it !

Awaiting for my boyfriend to reach singapore , probably around 8-9 pm .

Haha , Tonning tonight i guess ?

Just hope , somepeople won't be there , they're just bunch of hoohoh !

Happy Chinese New Year & Valentine's day !

Ohwell , alone for valentine , asshole boyfriend is still in genting for the 2nd day.
Time flies , passed very fast . Wasn't a problem t me .
Yesterday ,
Dinner @ Grandma house , Father side .
Cousin & co then came , chatted as usual , talking about their family problem . Like ohgosh . >:
Home around 1030 plus , then walked over to amanda house , Painted my nail for me!
Great color , going to shopped for new color after i get my angpaos money okays !

Slacked @ at house till 12am plus then walked home .
Bath & slept straight , getting so headache nowadays . >:

Today , Wokeup @ 1130am .
Had breakfast , & i thought boyfriend is @ home sleeping .
Till then , i realised he is @ genting , stupid me . <:

Went out @ 2plus , reaches Grandma house .

Had lunch first , while others came , rotted there with my psp , having wireless battle with my cousins . Laughmyassout ! ^^ .

Aftermath , Dad drive us along to angmokio , serangoon , hougang , for relative's house .

Super busy , plus super happy alright .

Get to meetup with longlost cousin for 3years cause my greatgrandma had passedaway so we can't celebrate cny for the past 2year . >:

All kids had grown tall & also so much different , can't even recognize them . omg.

Collecting of angpaos , omgomg , happy .

Home around 11 plus . Down to get mac & saw glen & co . LAUGH , handsome & prettys !

See-ing couples , girl holding on roses & presents , guy holding onto girl's hand .

Walking side by side with great smiles , my feeling wasn't great .

Bath & onlining .

Boyfriend is coming back tmr already ! Fast ~!

Yesterday , friday .
Rotted @ home while boyfriend & Jinling went over town to get clothes .
Metup with them @ night , around 9-10plus . Before that i went plaza to get photo album .
Boyfriend bought me a ragan tee again , <: Fajar then home . Totally pissed off okays .
What a bunch of useless freaks .

Today , Saturday .
Boyfriend called me inthe morning to wake me up . As he is going off to genting .
Its like i was actually awake , sms-ing him along .
Till then i suddenly fall back to sleep around 730 . >:
When i was awake it already 845am , called him & it can't get thru .
Getting so fucking upsad okays , totally shag lo . omfg .

Springcleaning to keep my mind away for crying , as i told him i can't cry .
Till now , computer & i'm going grandma house lateron .
3days aways , i knows it pass quickly . Just hope he faster come back okays . I'm so freaking miss him.

Yesterday .
{ Due-ed Photos }

School today , went in late with Vanessa . During recess . <:

Done work , ofc , Not sleeping @ all okays .

Assembly was total bored , afterschool went over Bangkit lrt to meet boyfriend .

Puffed before boarding the train .

He accompany me home , get prepared & down to petir around 345pm .
Rotted along with Honey , kevin , boris , kelvin , maco , jeffrey , favian , Jinglin , Nicholas , Cs .
Plaza , arcade , then boyfriend accompany me home again , Laughs .
I'm damn troublesome , home to get stuff & also bring along my slipper .

Cabbed down to plaza instead , super lazy t take train , Plus i'm so super hot okays .

Slacked @ plaza & headed down to town by 190 .

Took so long to reach , due to traffic jam . >: Super tired too .

Walked around town area , settle down dinner @ shaw house instead . Longjohn with boyfriend . <:

Bought tickets for '' The lighting Thief '' . Rated 8/10 .

Just felt so sleepy inthe cinema okays , kept lying down wanted to close my eye but wanted to finish the show .

Movie ended @ 11-12am , Puffed , Mac for drinks then bused 105 then cabbed down to panjang .

Slacked @ 103 with the rest , while honey went home .

Cabbed home around 130am plus , boyfriend went home dotaing .

While i'm here posting , super sleepy now , Not attending school tmr , h3h3 !

Nightnight peoples , taggies please . <:

Today .

Wokeup @115pm , boyfriend is going town now with Jinling . >: Omfg . Going lot one with my sister soon , gonna get things done & buyed , & also have my lunch there . Sorry boyfriend ,'can't accompany you there . I'm v.tired.

Oh so pissed-off.

Alright , sorry for not blogging yesterday .
Still , i'm pissed-off today .

Boyfriend came fetching me afterschool with kevin ,
Me & Vanessa wasn't late for school today too , like whoohoo . <: Lesson were boring , slept inthe last lesson . Boyfriend & Kevin then went over to meet amanda first , while i go home & prepared . Met them @ 123 while kevin send her girlfriend off . 3 of us then lrt-ed back to panjang , 163 for lunch , panjang to shopped .

Printed some photo , & i find it like omgzx , nice . <: Arcade , met kelvin & boris , then down to 178 to meetup with the rest .
All of us , plaza for their dinner & i went off @ 8pm .
Home , & found out boyfriend did something which he did not told me . Pissed off , ofc .

Watching confessions of a shopaholic now on funshion , addicted . ^^
Browsing thru internet & saw this news , Check it out !
http://lifestyle.sg.msn.com/health/wellbeing/article.aspx?cp-documentid=3844600&page=8
All about wearing highheel , h3h3 !
I'm so missing my dearest sisters now , omgomg . Needa great reunion too !
Going town & Bugis tmr with lovelies , spending hardcore nowadays , gonna save up .
Lazy to upload picture now , some other days okays !

Nothing much , as long there's you.

Alright , working today , from 2-6plus .
Ain't late , first time . <: Spend my days inthe office , busying with stuffs & after work , headed off to toapayoh to meetup with boyfriend & co . Rotted awhile , and trained home with them . Had a lil tiff with boyfriend yesterday , it's really pissed me off okays . >:
But till we're fine now , Boyfriend is asleep already . Yeap i'm angry . >:
He this ass din't wait for me . How can . >:
Going for short dota before heading to bed , h3h3 .

Edited blogskin & links , Still deicding wheather i should put up tagboard . ;x
Any comments?
Still editing blogsong before i can place it up .
Alright , meeting boyfriend tmr , i really needa to rebond my hair manzx . shityy !



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Dinner @ Sakura @ Jurongwest .
Aftermath , dad drove us over to the client house , While sist accompany me up to collect money & sots .
Afterthat , Home to get changes & down to meet boyfriend .
Up to boyfriend house then down to greenridge . Wasn't feeling well @ all . zz.
Met my honey over there , ^^ , Went over blocks .
Slacked & etc , while boyfriend send me off to jelapang lrt @ 1150 .

Down to keathong to meetup with honey & kevin awhile aftermath , cab home .
Cause this fucking boyfriend keep scare me okay !
Home , change & etc , here onlining , on phone with boyfriend .
School tmr already , like wth . >:
Gonna get my hair rebond , can't make it today . Super mad >:!

Taaadaa , bye !

Tell me whatelse can i do ?
M-I-A for a period before i get back to blogging , i'm very tired now .